@HollySaxby Part 10
And He had been cleaning me up in so many ways, but the consequences of the shame were slowly becoming more apparent to me. The enemy lied to me that since I was deserving of shame, there was no point in dealing with besetting sin: That because I was a disappointment to God I would never amount to anything, so why bother? Except if it had been that clear I would have seen through it. It was just a feeling that lurked around in the shadows as an undercurrent, where shame thrives best. I have read that this is a common thought process among adults who were consistently bullied as children, with nobody to whom to turn.

The Lord helped me move out from under a deep sense of shame which has burdened me for many years.