I love this and would to GOD that this could be my end also, but I feel more like Joseph I think it was who said his years had been short and full of evil and he had not attained to that which his fathers had... May the Lord's will be accomplished ONLY in what's left of my life...please Dear GOD.

Then Abraham's spirit was released, and he died at a good (ample, full) old age, an old man, satisfied and satiated, and was gathered to his people. [Gen. 15:15.]
Genesis 25:8
https://bible.com/bible/8/gen.25.8.AMPC