@blueheart100 Dear sister, I am 62 years old. I have Pilgrim heritage (and lots of native American) and that is exactly what William Bradford and Roger Williams attempted to accomplish. We will only have free worship of our God based on our own assurance with the Lord. Our environment has nothing to do with our worship. I think the longing you have is spiritual and only can truly be accomplished in the eternal realm. But I appreciate your desires.